Miss Judgy McJudgykins

Every mother has experienced their fair share of moments when they just CAN'T. They just can't do another play date on 3 hours of sleep. They just can't meet up for coffee with a screaming 2yo in tow - AGAIN. They can't make it to happy hour because their husband has picked up more OT. They can't make it to the gym because they haven't slept & have to take their kids to the doctor. They can't struggle with potty training one more night. They can't take a shower because a 20 minute power nap sounds so much more enticing.

Then, in the midst of all the sleep deprived "I just cannot do one more thing" moments they meet Miss Judgy McJudgykins. You know her. We have ALL felt her stares.

She's the mom who is perfectly put together 24/7/365. She is the mom who makes it to the gym not once but twice a day. She carries on conversations about her amazing vacations & her amazing children, who have never struggled with picky eating or potty training. She will gladly tell you you make too many excuses. She will happily give you her hairdressers card as she stares at the cheerios atop your "up-do." And she will always walk away with an air about her like she is so much better then you, making you feel so very small.

I give her kudos. Kudos for having a perfect life. Kudos for always finding time to shower, do her hair & makeup. Kudos for getting her workout in every day. Let's be real, I haven't showered in 2 days thanks to sleep deprivation & the amazingness that is called type 1 diabetes. I am lucky to get a decent meal in, & lately it involves veggies & hummus so I don't feel so bad I haven't got my workout in.

I think we are all guilty at some point of judging moms. But why?? Why do we feel that somehow we will feel better about our own lives if we somehow belittle others & give them the judgy stares??

It's a new year. So why not try to judge others less. We need friends, not judgement. So to all the Miss Judgy McJudgykins out there - could ya stop already?! Whatever your deal is with having to feel better then others, or not putting yourself in others shoes, or flat out LYING (because c'mon EVERY kid hates quinoa at 2 years old!)... on behalf of mother's everywhere who are feeling a bit like we want to throat punch you, please take a step back & change your judgy ways as we enter 2016.

Hey its a new year... why not a new you?

Reflecting...

Over the last few weeks I have done a lot of reflecting on 2015. I may not always post on Facebook daily, or blog often (Ok so it's been since June! Horrible I know!), or even keep in touch with my family like I should... but that is because life is messy, complicated, & I got many "well you're just making excuses" comments from people in our lives for going MIA.

So here are the cliff notes from 2015:

• Izzy turned 2! We welcomed full blown toddler life & diabetes - & while it has been a roller coaster, including the "Terrible 2's," I wouldn't trade a day of it for the world. And can I mention Izzy will be 3 soon & I am freaking out that I have a 3 year old!!?
• We managed to make it out to see family in Oklahoma twice - both times we got stuck in ice storm conditions! I also got to share in my husband spending Thanksgiving back in Oklahoma for the first time in 16 years! He was so happy, & I was happy that we made the road trip to spend the holiday with his family.
• I became more involved with a local T1D group. After months of trying to plan events, family get togethers, coffee meetups, & play dates, I did have to finally take a step back & lessen what I was doing locally. Some days you really just need to take time for you & focus on your family.
• We ran for TEAM IZZY at the JDRF One Walk & raised over $1700! For our small team that was HUGE & I was very happy with those that came out to support us. If you are one of those people, THANK YOU!
• I found out why I have been feeling sick for so long... unfortunately I am allergic to gluten, dairy & eggs. It has been a tough road to add this to my plate, but I have taken it on as best I can & am feeling much better now that these items are cut from my diet. But damn what I wouldn't give for a REAL hamburger bun!
• Izzy did dance throughout the year & had her first recital in December... Her sugar cooperated the entire time & I could not have been happier! I am the first to admit I was a nervous wreck, but she rocked it.
• Izzy's older sisters, K&K did their own things this year, softball & chorus. Both girls rocked it. Kaylee made the All Stars softball team in the summer, Keira had numerous performances & got out of her comfort zone... & Izzy couldn't be happier to watch softball & dance at performances.
• What end of the year winter break isn't complete without sickness? We had our fair share of illnesses around the house, but I am fairly certain we did AWESOME keeping Izzy as healthy as possible.

We also had many issues with diabetes over 2015. Izzy's A1C fluctuated as we battled the flu many times. Then there was the pump malfunctioning & BURNING her while on a road trip which left us without a pump for days, & left me contemplating if we should stay on injections for awhile. Ultimately we went back on the pump, but I am now more cautious of any signs of a malfunction.

It is a new year, a new clean slate. So with that I will be *making every attempt to* blog weekly. I want to get back into not only blogging about motherhood, but the chaos surrounding diabetes & toddler life in general.

Stay tuned for next weeks blog post...