If mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy!

Lets sit down, take a step back, & draw in this amazing conclusion to mommyhood.  If mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy.  It's a saying I have been repeating in my head for days now... & then it dawned on me, am I truly happy?  I am happy to have an amazing family, an amazing husband who loves us so much, happy children.  No matter what obstacles come our way, I am ready to conquer them.  I don't always *want* to conquer them, but I need to, therefore I will.

Miss Izzy has been beyond unstable this week.  Her blood sugars are high, they're low, there is no happy middle ground of normalcy.  So as a result, mama isn't sleeping, isn't eating right, isn't taking care of herself.  I am pretty sure no one in my house has been happy this week.  Just like the saying goes...

I have drawn several conclusions from reflecting on the week:

1. I have GOT to start eating right.  A cup of coffee at 8am & a handful of popcorn at 9pm does not make for a well balanced nutritious day.  However, the 10 lbs. I have lost in the last month has been quite needed.  Cheers for being down 2 pant sizes!  (Yes, I am aware this was an unhealthy way to lose weight, add in stress... blah blah I know yadda yadda)
2. I need to TELL my husband what goes through my head.  He is not psychic - but damn he should be by now!
3. I need sleep.  I don't know if this will happen anytime soon, but I am hopeful on the hubby's day off he will take over the night time blood sugar duties & I can get 8 hours of sleep... or maybe just more then 3 hours of sleep... *hubby this is your hint!!!*
4. I will absolutely continue to see a therapist.  Not everyone who goes to therapy is crazy you know... but that hour away from the house, to vent about whatever I feel like, to an unbiased party who gives AMAZEBALLS advice... it's soooo worth my time & energy right now!
5. I will put myself first from here on out.  I will take showers daily.  I will remove the two month old nail polish on my toes & give myself a pedicure.  I will do something nice for myself once a week, even if it's just knowing I need 10 minutes sitting in the car, watching the sunset or the stars sparkle after work.
6. Two words.  Date.  Night.  DUH!  I need this.  My husband needs this.  My children need this.

So these are my 6 conclusions to making myself happier.  It isn't going to be easy to do.  I won't always remember to put myself first, because let's face it, I never do.  That one may take a lot of retraining on my part.  But if I'm not happy, how happy can those around me truly be?

On a *happy* side note... We finally found a weekend babysitter for Izzy & her sisters!!  Silver lining.

Have a blessed weekend.  Here's to hoping for a better blood sugar night & a happier mama!
XO,
Stacey